:06:00
they just kind of
come over me,
:06:03
and these doctors
don't know shit, you know.
:06:06
They just come,
like I'm going crazy or something.
:06:11
I don't feel-- I don't feel
like me any more, you know?
:06:15
I feel like--
when they come,
:06:17
I feel like
somebody else.
:06:19
What do you do?
:06:20
Nothing.
Not a goddamned thing, you know?
:06:23
Well... mostly I do
a lot of drugs.
:06:29
Do anything
you can, you know?
:06:31
Y-You get through it
any way you can.
:06:35
When I was
in the hospital,
:06:37
I thought, ''Yeah.
Yeah, this makes sense.''
:06:41
What makes sense?
:06:43
'Cause I failed, Timmy.
:06:45
What are you
talking about?
:06:50
'Cause I...
:06:52
'Cause I killed someone--
some people. l--
:06:55
I made some terrible...
:06:58
mistakes.
:06:59
Ronnie, we all made mistakes.
I mean, you...
:07:02
you had no choice.
:07:04
Those damn pansy
demonstrators
:07:05
will never
understand.
:07:07
Don't talk about it.
:07:08
It was insane
over there.
:07:10
Sometimes I wish--
I wish I'd--
:07:14
When I got shot
in the foot,
:07:16
I could have laid down.
:07:18
Who gives a fuck now
if I was a hero or not?
:07:21
I was paralysed,
castrated that day. Why?
:07:23
'Cause I was so s--
stupid.
:07:27
I have my dick and my balls now
and I think--
:07:32
I think, Timmy,
I'd give everything I believe in,
:07:36
everything I got--
all my values
:07:38
just to have
my body again,
:07:40
just to be whole again.
:07:42
But I'm not whole.
:07:43
I never will be,
and that's...
:07:45
the way it is,
isn't it?
:07:50
Ronnie...
:07:51
it's your birthday.
:07:52
You're alive.
:07:57
You made it.