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she's on her period
and I come out all bloody.
:19:03
She gets out of the shower
to watch the space shuttle land.
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It does and we fuck on the black couch."
:19:13
"I'm in so much pain.
:19:16
All my joints are stiff.
:19:20
Excruciatingly painful.
:19:25
I don't know how long I've been here.
:19:28
I'm afraid
it hasn't been as long as I think.
:19:31
I'm shivering.
:19:34
I'm lying in a cold pool of my own piss.
:19:40
I want to be released now.
:19:45
Oh, I have to wait.
:19:52
I have to wait and endure this.
:19:54
I will endure it.
:19:56
Oh God, it hurts."
:19:59
As a very young child
:20:01
I was always considered bossy.
:20:04
I liked to boss everybody around.
:20:07
I would tell everybody else what to do.
I was very strong-willed.
:20:11
I wouldn't even let my parents
tell me what to do.
:20:13
I wanted to tell them what to do.
:20:15
I played the normal sex games.
I didn't play "slave and master."
:20:18
I remember very early
on playing games where--
:20:22
actually it was with a little girl
down the block,
:20:25
she would lay down on her bed
and take off all of her clothes
:20:30
and just lie there with her eyes closed.
:20:32
I would touch her and do things to her.
:20:35
Never reversed. I was always
the one who did that to her.
:20:39
I didn't think about that
for many years until I realized--
:20:42
that's sort of S & M.
I guess you might call it that.
:20:45
Did your sex play always stay private
:20:49
or were you ever discovered?
:20:51
I think I was discovered by my mother.
:20:54
Several times
I undressed little boys in the back yard
:20:57
and stuff like that.
I got yelled at.