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When it first started to come out,
I was appalled.
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Because, even though I was gay,
and I had my own secret life,
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S & M, to me, was always
something I just did not comprehend...
1:03:48
...at all-like most people.
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I just didn't get it.
1:03:53
And again, it was sort of--
I had this secret sexual life
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that was all my own--
it was sort of what set me apart
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from the Orange County family.
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And you usurped it.
1:04:08
You had a much more interesting
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and decadent secret life
that I could ever hope to have.
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I was very normal in my--
I didn't even buttfuck.
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I wasn't even a good homosexual.
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So I just felt always
a little inadequate.
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I called her Ivy.
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Not 'cause her name was Ivy--
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'cause she was on Iv.
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She was my medicine.