1:19:10
I don't know,
this stuff might be all icky,
1:19:12
I'm scared to look at it.
I have no idea what it looks like.
1:19:14
It may be
all full of weird bacteria and stuff.
1:19:19
I don't how long it's been here.
1:19:22
It's been a month since Bob's death.
Just about a month.
1:19:26
I haven't touched it
or looked at it since.
1:19:29
Do it carefully.
1:19:31
I should probably have gloves on.
1:19:48
This was in his lungs.
1:19:53
What is that?
1:19:57
I don't know.
1:19:58
Mucus, phlegm, what you wanna call it.
1:20:02
All that liquid came out of his lungs?
All that?
1:20:06
He was literally drowning.
1:20:13
"Why? Because it feels good,
1:20:16
because it gives me an erection,
1:20:17
because it makes me come,
1:20:18
because I'm sick,
because there is so much sickness,
1:20:21
because I say "Fuck the sickness."
1:20:23
Because I had the attention,
1:20:24
because I was a loner a lot,
because I was different.
1:20:26
Because kids beat me up
on the way to school,
1:20:28
because I was humiliated by nuns,
1:20:30
because of Christ and the crucifixion,
1:20:31
because of Porky Pig in bondage,
1:20:34
force-fed by some sinister creep
in a black cape.
1:20:37
Because of stories
about children hanged by their wrists,
1:20:39
burned on the stoves, scalded in tubs,
1:20:41
because of "Mutiny in the Bounty,"
1:20:43
because of cowboys and lndians,
1:20:44
because of Houdini,
1:20:44
because of my cousin Cliff,
1:20:46
because of the forts we built
and the things we did inside them.
1:20:49
Because of what's inside me,
because of my genes,
1:20:52
because of my parents,
1:20:53
because of doctors and nurses,
1:20:55
because they tied me to the crib,
so I wouldn't hurt myself,
1:20:57
because I had time to think,
because I had time to hold my penis,