1:20:02
All that liquid came out of his lungs?
All that?
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He was literally drowning.
1:20:13
"Why? Because it feels good,
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because it gives me an erection,
1:20:17
because it makes me come,
1:20:18
because I'm sick,
because there is so much sickness,
1:20:21
because I say "Fuck the sickness."
1:20:23
Because I had the attention,
1:20:24
because I was a loner a lot,
because I was different.
1:20:26
Because kids beat me up
on the way to school,
1:20:28
because I was humiliated by nuns,
1:20:30
because of Christ and the crucifixion,
1:20:31
because of Porky Pig in bondage,
1:20:34
force-fed by some sinister creep
in a black cape.
1:20:37
Because of stories
about children hanged by their wrists,
1:20:39
burned on the stoves, scalded in tubs,
1:20:41
because of "Mutiny in the Bounty,"
1:20:43
because of cowboys and lndians,
1:20:44
because of Houdini,
1:20:44
because of my cousin Cliff,
1:20:46
because of the forts we built
and the things we did inside them.
1:20:49
Because of what's inside me,
because of my genes,
1:20:52
because of my parents,
1:20:53
because of doctors and nurses,
1:20:55
because they tied me to the crib,
so I wouldn't hurt myself,
1:20:57
because I had time to think,
because I had time to hold my penis,
1:21:01
because I had awful stomachaches
1:21:02
and holding my penis
made it feel better.
1:21:04
Because I thought
like I was going to die,
1:21:06
because it makes me feel invincible,
1:21:07
because it makes me feel triumphant,
1:21:09
because I'm a Catholic,
1:21:10
because I still love Lent
and still love my penis
1:21:13
and in spite of it all, I have no guilt.
1:21:15
Because my parents said
"Be what you wanna be",
1:21:17
and this is what I wanna be.
1:21:19
Because I ' m nothing but a big baby,
and I wanna stay that way
1:21:21
and I want a mommy forever,
even a mean one,
1:21:23
'specially a mean one.
1:21:24
Because of all the fairy tale witches,
1:21:26
and the wicked stepmother
and the stepsisters,
1:21:28
and how sexy Cinderella was,
1:21:30
smudged with soot,
doomed to a life of servitude.
1:21:32
Because of Hansel,
locked in the witch's cage
1:21:35
until he was fat enough to eat.
1:21:37
Because of "O",
and how desperately I wanted to be her.
1:21:40
Because of my dreams,
because of the games we played,
1:21:42
because I've got an active imagination,
1:21:44
because my mother bought me Tinker Toys,
1:21:46
because hardware stores
give me hard-ons,
1:21:48
because of hammers,
nails, clothespins, wood,
1:21:51
padlocks, pullies, eyeballs,
thumbtacks, staple guns,
1:21:54
sewing needles,
wooden spoons, fishing tackle,
1:21:56
chains, metal rulers, rubber tubings,
1:21:59
spatulas, rope, twine,
"C" clamps, "S" hooks,