1:09:00
´´...and my heart
is as heavy as it was before. ´´
1:09:04
My piIIow often was very wet
in the morning.
1:09:11
There was a gardener...
1:09:13
...who didn´t understand perhaps
what l was going through.
1:09:17
But he always said to me,
´´Don´t worry, it won´t last long. ´´
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And whether I beIieved him or not
it was good to hear him say that.
1:09:25
And he aIways gave me a fIower.
1:09:28
Within a few months
of their arrival in England...
1:09:30
...many of the refugees,
along with other English children...
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...were forced to evacuate
to new families in the country...
1:09:37
...to escape the expected bombing
of the cities.
1:09:41
-You consented to take two chiIdren?
-Yes, I´II take in two chiIdren.
1:09:45
Two IittIe girIs.
They´II be happy with you, I´m sure.
1:09:48
-Thank you very much.
-Two nice IittIe girIs, aren´t they?
1:09:51
None of the foster parents
with whom l stayed...
1:09:54
...and there were five of them...
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...none of them could stand me
for very long.
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All of them had the grace
to take in a Jewish child.
1:10:04
They were not particuIarIy warm.
1:10:07
They did not Iove me.
1:10:09
I did not Iove them.
1:10:11
NevertheIess, they did,
as I say, what most of us don´t do...
1:10:15
...which is to burden the househoId...
1:10:19
...the kitchens, the bedroom
and the Iiving room with this foreigner.
1:10:25
Mariam was somewhat aloof.
1:10:28
lt was her manner. She was loving, but...
1:10:30
...she didn´t hug and kiss me.
My mother was the exact opposite.
1:10:34
She used to not just kiss me once...
1:10:37
...she sort of kissed me Iike "´rat-tat-tat,"´
Iike a machine gun.
1:10:41
But Mariam was distant and nice...
1:10:44
...and I think that´s what I needed...
1:10:46
...because I had troubIe...
1:10:48
...reaIIy...
1:10:50
...feeIing that I beIonged there.
1:10:52
To have sort of pushed me into it
wouId have been difficuIt.
1:10:56
He didn´t cry, not at aII.
1:10:58
I couIdn´t understand it.