1:11:00
This is London calling.
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Just once...
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...they used to like to listen
to some programs on the wireless.
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He used to come sit on my knee.
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And there was something...
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...in the news, I just heard him once go....
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A IittIe sob and that was aII.
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l tried really to please the Cohens
because l loved them...
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...and l felt very dependent.
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One of my main worries
was that l would be...
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...sent away.
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I know this happened to another boy,
somewhat oIder...
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...who was taken in
by some friends of the Cohens.
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He was arrogant and impossibIe...
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...and eventuaIIy they simpIy
had to send him to some other home.
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I´d heard of other pIaces
where this had happened.
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So I feIt very much...
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...on edge.
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Word came that my mother
was no longer in London.
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She went back to Vienna...
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...to get my father to move,
who was impassive.
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So I reaIIy did make up my mind
that I wouId be as tough as naiIs.
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Nothing wouId hurt me.
I wouId have no emotions.
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And it carried me through
for about six or seven years.
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l got a scholarship to a grammar school.
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People were saying to me,
partly in jealousy:
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´´You know, they are snobs
in these schools and they´re anti-Semites.
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´´You gotta watch yourself.
They´re gonna take it out on you. ´´
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And l went to school.
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I had a schooI tie, I guess...
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...or a bIazer.
I was just entering a new worId.
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The sun was shining.
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I went to schooI, and a feIIow came up
to me and said, "´Who are you?"´
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And I just knocked him down.
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There was no doubt a cost...
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...trying to be good aII the time
and keeping my anger in.
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Only once did it slip.