:07:07
Things aren't going the way
I had hoped.
:07:11
I knew it would take time
to adapt.
:07:15
I didn't think
it would be this hard.
:07:17
You only started a few weeks ago.
:07:19
Doesn't it take some time
to settle in?
:07:23
Don't you think so?
:07:25
I get along well with my colleagues.
That's not the problem.
:07:30
They're easy to talk to.
:07:33
Good atmosphere.
:07:42
But still perverse.
:07:46
That makes lying easy,
:07:48
tell myself everything's fine.
:07:52
That's a lie.
:08:00
I'm afraid I'll disappoint.
:08:02
Afraid of what?
:08:05
Afraid I'll disappoint.
:08:09
Afraid I won't make the grade.
:08:11
You've had these worries before,
but you always handle it.
:08:16
I can't handle anything right now.
:08:18
I'm just being carried along.
:08:24
Sometimes I don't even know
what I'm supposed to do.
:08:27
Nor what's expected of me.
:08:31
So I start to panic.
:08:34
A simple phone call
becomes overwhelming.
:08:43
This week,
I went from meeting to meeting.
:08:46
No time to think things over
or take a step back.
:08:54
I can't think anymore.
:08:57
My mind is blank.