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I love coming here
because when I'm in my "txoko"
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I can isolate myself a bit.
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And I do it
for sentimental reasons too
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because I got married here
in Guadalupe.
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Because of the family, we
got married on July 23, last year.
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It was my mother's first visit
to the jail and she cried so much.
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We left the house together.
He went over to his car
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and I went in the opposite
direction, to mine.
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He was conceived
in jail, poor thing.
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I picked up my son to cross the road
and I heard an explosion.
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Ibai was born, strangely enough,
on Constitution Day,
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December 6, last year.
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I'd planned my life with Montxo.
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So, in that sense,
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they've taken
all my plans away from me.
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This is his third trip on the bus.
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It's easy to allow the world,
your world,
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to revolve around the murder
of your husband,
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but I knew that thinking like that
would lead nowhere.
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He's the apple of his mother's eye,
and she's suffered a lot.
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In his PNV days, he evolved
ideologically and politically,
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and that happens
with relatives too.
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My greatest fear was that
I wouldn't do it well,
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and that one day, one of my children
would consider he had the right
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to do the same thing,
kill someone else's father.
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If one of my children
were to kill someone,
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he would ruin his own life
and that of other people,
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but it would destroy me.
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They're contradictory feelings.