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Responsibility?
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I'll spell it for you.
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T-R-A-P.
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You don't want the baby with us,
do you, Earl? Not really.
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I didn't say that.
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The baby would be a burden,
wouldn't it? A drag.
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All I said was go away
for a while without her.
1:33:28
Listen, Mae, don't make
no mistake about kids.
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They grow up. They have their own lives
to lead. They'll walk out on you.
1:33:37
Don't we owe a child some happiness?
1:33:39
It isn't a question of the kid's happiness.
It's a question of yours.
1:33:43
- And Jerry's.
- I told you somebody's throat has to be cut.
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But it's never ours, is it, Earl?
It's always someone else's. Why?
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Because they're soft.
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And we're tough, we're hard.
1:33:53
If someone suffers because of us,
that's just too bad.
1:33:56
That's the way life is.
1:33:59
How many times have I told myself that?
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Nothing counted but me,
my disappointments, my unhappiness.
1:34:06
I married Jerry, moved into his house,
used his money and had his child, and yet...
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Yet I was never his wife.
1:34:15
You're someone's wife
when you belong to them.
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I never belonged to anybody.
1:34:21
Never?
1:34:25
I thought I was being honest.
I thought I wasn't lying, but I was.
1:34:29
I said to the world, this is what I am,
take me or leave me...
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...so that it was always on my terms
they had to accept me.
1:34:35
It was a trick.
1:34:36
Don't you see, Earl? It was a trick to avoid
the responsibility of belonging to someone.
1:34:40
What are you giving me?
An hour ago you were in love.
1:34:46
I don't know what
the word means anymore.
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Not the way we use it.
1:34:50
You knew yesterday...
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...on the beach.
1:34:55
Love because we're lonely,
love because we're frightened?
1:34:59
Love because we're bored.