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From him,
it wouldn't have sounded cruel.
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When I talk like him or when Aunt Vi
talks like him, we sound heartless.
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And we're not really.
Though we do terrible things.
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What do you consider terrible?
:40:16
Aunt Vi let her husband die
because of Sebastian.
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Killed him, some people thought.
:40:23
How, killed him?
:40:25
Once, Sebastian decided to give up
the torments of this world...
:40:30
...and become a Buddhist monk.
That was in Tibet.
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He shaved his head, was given
a wooden bowl and was happy.
:40:37
Till Aunt Vi came.
:40:39
Why? What did she do?
:40:41
Lived in a hut, even took vows,
or whatever women do.
:40:46
Anything to be near him,
to get to him, to make him come home.
:40:50
While there, word came.
:40:53
Mr. Venable was dying.
He had to see her.
:40:56
And she chose to stay?
:40:59
She chose to let her husband
die alone.
:41:03
If you'd known Sebastian, you'd
understand she had no choice...
:41:07
...how none of us ever had a choice,
once Sebastian had decided we were...
:41:12
...to be used.
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Used?
:41:16
You mean he used people?
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Yes.
:41:21
Isn't that what love is?
Using people?
:41:25
And maybe that's what hate is.
Not being able to use people.
:41:30
- Go on.
- Go on where?
:41:32
Anywhere.
:41:34
To the first memory you come to.
:41:38
My first memory?
:41:41
It was once at a Mardi Gras ball.
:41:44
The Mardi Gras ball? Yes?
:41:47
My very first memory.
:41:50
It was last spring.
:41:52
Before last spring,
I remember nothing. Nothing at all.
:41:58
It's as if my life began
and ended that night.