1:34:00
...but he just grabbed my hand
and dragged me into the water...
1:34:04
...all the way in...
1:34:05
...and I came out looking naked.
1:34:08
Why did he do that?
Do you know why he did that?
1:34:12
Yes.
1:34:14
- To attract attention.
- Because he thought you were lonely?
1:34:18
Did he think he could shock you
out of your depression?
1:34:22
You know why I was doing it.
I told you.
1:34:26
I was procuring for him.
1:34:29
Sebastian was lonely, doctor.
1:34:33
That empty blue jay notebook
got bigger and bigger.
1:34:37
So big, it was big and empty...
1:34:40
...like that big, empty,
blue sea and sky.
1:34:46
And before long, when the weather
was warmer and the beach so crowded...
1:34:50
...he didn't need me anymore
for that purpose.
1:34:53
The ones from the free beach climbed
over the fence or swam around it.
1:34:59
So now he let me wear
a decent dark suit.
1:35:03
I'd go to a faraway end
of the beach and write post cards...
1:35:06
...and letters and keep up
my third person journal...
1:35:10
...until it was time to meet him
outside the bathhouses on the street.
1:35:14
He would come out... followed.
1:35:18
Who'd follow him?
1:35:20
The hungry young people that climbed
over the fence from the free beach.
1:35:25
He'd pass out tips among them,
as if they'd all...
1:35:28
...shined his shoes
or called taxis for him.
1:35:32
Each day the crowd got bigger...
1:35:35
...noisier, greedier.
1:35:38
At last, we stopped going out there.
1:35:41
And after that? After you stopped
going to the public beach?
1:35:45
Then one day...
1:35:46
...a few days after we'd stopped
going out to the beach...
1:35:51
...it was a blazing white day.
1:35:54
Not a blazing hot blue day,
but a blazing hot white one.
1:35:59
We had a late lunch at a shabby,
lonely restaurant by the sea there.