:46:03
Within a week, my father had closed
his Beacon Hill practice...
:46:06
and set out to start a mission
in the Mexican Mountains.
:46:09
I turned in my SDS card
and my crash helmet, and I followed him.
:46:13
It was a disaster, at least for me.
:46:16
My father had received the revelation, not I.
:46:19
He stood gaunt on a mountain slope
and preached the Apocalypse...
:46:22
to solemnly amused Indians.
:46:24
I masturbated a lot.
We lived in a grass wickiup...
:46:27
ate raw rabbit and crushed piñon nuts.
It was hideous.
:46:31
Within two months, I was back in Boston.
:46:33
A hollow shell, disenchanted
with everything, and dizzy with dengue.
:46:38
I turned to austerity, combed my hair
tight, entered nursing school.
:46:42
I became haggard, driven...
:46:45
had shamelessly incestuous dreams
about my father.
:46:49
I took up with some of the senior staff there.
One of them...
:46:52
a portly psychiatrist, explained...
:46:54
I was generated
by an unresolved lust for my father.
:46:58
I cracked up.
:47:00
One day, they found me walking to work
naked and screaming obscenities.
:47:05
There was talk of institutionalizing me.
:47:07
So I packed a bag and went back to join
my father in the Sierra Madre Mountains.
:47:12
I've been there ever since.
That's three years.
:47:15
My father is, of course, as mad as a hatter.
:47:18
I watch over him,
and have been curiously content.
:47:23
You see, I believe in everything.
:47:28
What was that all about?
:47:31
I thought I was obvious as hell.
:47:34
I'm trying to tell you,
I have a thing about middle-aged men.
:47:38
I admire your candor.
:47:40
You've been admiring a lot more than that.
:47:46
You're wasting your time.
:47:49
I've been impotent for years.
:47:53
Rubbish.
:47:55
What the hell is wrong with being impotent?