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in Thy homeland.
Amen.
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Mother is in my thoughts
nearly every day...
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although she's been dead
for over 20 years.
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I remember
she would often seek...
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the solitude and peace
of the grounds.
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I also remember that I would
follow her at a distance...
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and spy on her
without really meaning to...
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because I loved her
to such a jealous extreme.
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I loved her because
she was so gentle...
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and beautiful and alive...
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and so all-pervadingly
present.
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But she could also be cold,
playfully cruel...
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and rebuff me.
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Yet I could not help
feeling sorry for her...
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and now that I'm older,
I understand her much better.
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I wish I could
see her again...
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to tell her
what I understand...