1:38:00
I went to visit my wife today
because she's in a state of depression...
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so depressed that my daughter
flew from Seattle to be with her...
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and I feel lousy about that.
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I feel lousy about the pain
that I've caused my wife and kids.
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I feel guilty and conscious-stricken and
those things you think sentimental...
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but which my generation called
simple human decency.
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And I miss my home...
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because I'm beginning
to get scared shitless.
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Because all of a sudden it's closer to
the end than it is to the beginning...
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and death is suddenly
a perceptible thing to me...
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with definable features.
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You're dealing with a man
that has primal doubts...
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and you've got to cope with it.
1:38:52
I'm not some guy discussing male
menopause on the "Barbara Walters Show."
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I'm the man that you presumably love.
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I'm part of your life.
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I live here.
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I'm real!
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You can't switch
to another station.
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Well...
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what exactly is it
you want me to do?
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I just want you to love me.
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I just want you to love me,
primal doubts and all.
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You understand that, don't you?
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I don't know how to do that.
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I'll be with you in a minute, Max.