:02:01
What desire cou/d this be?
:02:04
Not to stay a horse any /onger?
:02:07
Not to remain reined up forever
in those particu/ar genetic strings?
:02:14
/s it possib/e, at moments we can't imagine,
a horse can add its sufferings together...
:02:19
the non-stop jerks and jabs
that are its dai/y /ife...
:02:25
and turn them...
:02:27
into grief?
:02:30
What use is grief...
:02:33
to a horse?
:02:38
You see...
:02:41
/'m /ost.
:02:44
What use, l should be asking, are questions
like these to an overworked psychiatrist...
:02:49
in a provincial hospital?
:02:51
They're worse than useless.
:02:54
They are, in fact...
:02:56
subversive.
:03:00
The thing is...
:03:04
l'm wearing that horse's head myself...
:03:07
all reined up in old language
and old assumptions...
:03:10
straining to jump clean-hoofed onto
a new track of being l only suspect is there.
:03:15
l can't see it, because my educated, average
head is being held at the wrong angle.
:03:19
l can't jump, because the bit forbids it,
and my own basic force...
:03:24
my horsepower, if you like...
:03:27
is too little.
:03:29
The only thing l know for sure, is this.
:03:31
A horse's head is finally unknowable to me.
:03:35
Yet l handle children's heads,
which l presume to be more complicated...
:03:39
at least in the area of my chief concern.
:03:43
ln a way, it has nothing to do with this boy.
:03:45
The doubts have been there for years,
piling up steadily in this dreary place.
:03:49
lt's the extremity of this case that's made
them active. l know extremity is the point.
:03:54
All the same, whatever the reasons, these
doubts are not just vaguely worrying...
:03:58
but intolerable!