:56:02
You had taken charge
of all the words in our home.
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-You're exaggerating.
-I must finish speaking.
:56:10
I know I'm tipsy but otherwise
I wouldn't have said what I have.
:56:15
When I don't dare say any more
because I'm ashamed
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you can explain and
I'll listen and understand
:56:25
just as I've always done.
:56:31
I loved you, Mama, it was
a matter of life and death.
:56:35
But I distrusted your words.
:56:38
They didn't match
the expression in your eyes.
:56:42
You have a beautiful voice.
When I was little,
:56:44
I could feel it all over my body.
:56:48
But I knew instinctively
you didn't mean what you said.
:56:54
I couldn't understand your words.
:56:59
The most horrible thing was,
you'd smile when you were mad.
:57:03
When you hated Papa
you'd call him
:57:06
"my dearest." When you
were tired of me you'd say
:57:11
"darling little girl."
:57:29
How quiet.
:57:32
What am I to say?
:57:35
-Defend yourself.
-Is it worth while?
:57:41
-How do I know?
-You reproach me for going away
:57:45
and for staying at home.
:57:48
I had a hell of
a time those years.
:57:54
My back hurt, I couldn't practice.
Important engagements were cancelled.