:36:00
I suddenly became
hyper aware of my body.
:36:05
And I could feel my heart beating,
:36:08
and I began to imagine that...
:36:11
I could feel the blood sort of
coursing through my veins
:36:15
and my hands and in
the back of my... neck.
:36:21
I felt precarious, like I was
a machine that was functioning
:36:24
but I could just conk out at any second.
:36:28
You're not gonna conk out. You gotta put
those kind of thoughts out of your head.
:36:32
Yeah. It frightens me,
too, you know, because...
:36:36
I'm not that far from the age when
Mother began showing signs of strain.
:36:39
You're not your mother.
You're not. You're not.
:36:42
You've been under stress and you haven't
been sleeping well. Things like that.
:36:55
What are these?
Are these Joey's photographs?
:36:58
- Oh, yeah.
- Let me see.
:37:01
They're not very good, I'm afraid.
:37:04
No. She doesn't really have an eye.
:37:07
She's gonna wanna know what you think,
so you'd better get ready.
:37:10
Poor Joey.
:37:13
She has all the anguish and anxiety
:37:17
of the artistic personality
without any of the talent.
:37:20
And naturally, I'm put in the position
of having to encourage her.
:37:24
Tell her the truth.
Get it over with. Don't lead her on.
:37:27
I don't lead her on. I mean,
God, I can't break her heart.
:37:30
And you know how
competitive she is with me.
:37:35
I always think it's better
to level with a person.
:37:38
- Wish you'd done that with me more.
- I did.
:37:40
No, you didn't.
You flattered me, and I liked it.
:37:43
Frederick, you're good,
and I've never hesitated to say it.
:37:46
There's something missing from my work.
:37:49
I don't know. I don't know if I've lost it
or I never had it, or what.
:37:55
You're capable of being extraordinary
and you've stopped for spite.
:37:59
No, not for spite!