:43:00
But as you know,
fidelity doesn't exist.
:43:07
Not true fidelity.
:43:10
When you're gay,
you can't be faithful.
:43:13
lt's because of the sad fact
that we can't have any children.
:43:17
We can't even adopt any.
-Peter and l are also childless.
:43:21
l've always loved children. l think
l would have been a good mother.
:43:28
Don't you agree?
-Yes.
:43:31
Martin fell madly
in love with a schoolboy.
:43:35
His parents were at the end of their
tether. lt was almost scandalous.
:43:41
Well, naturally l felt rather
abandoned and mourned my loss.
:43:48
But l got this apartment
as a consolation prize.
:43:52
Martin would come here often.
:43:55
He'd sit in the very armchair
in which you're sitting.
:44:00
Sometimes he'd cry.
:44:03
lt was hard. Those were hard times.
:44:09
That boy turned out
to be a real devil.
:44:13
But it's a lovely apartment.
lt really is.
:44:17
lt's very lovely.
:44:22
lt's nice to be with you.
-How long have we known each other?
:44:26
For 15 years, Tim.
-Oh, my God.
:44:29
And we've been working
together for 12 years.
:44:34
Are you unhappy?
-Do l look unhappy?
:44:38
You're always so friendly
and hardworking...
:44:42
and self-possessed.
:44:44
l suddenly had the feeling
that you were terribly unhappy.
:44:49
l'm sorry, Katarina.
l didn't mean to embarrass you.
:44:53
Maybe l want to cry.
-You have to cry if you feel like it.
:44:57
l don't mind at all. On the contrary.
l'd consider it a gesture of trust.