:44:00
Sometimes he'd cry.
:44:03
lt was hard. Those were hard times.
:44:09
That boy turned out
to be a real devil.
:44:13
But it's a lovely apartment.
lt really is.
:44:17
lt's very lovely.
:44:22
lt's nice to be with you.
-How long have we known each other?
:44:26
For 15 years, Tim.
-Oh, my God.
:44:29
And we've been working
together for 12 years.
:44:34
Are you unhappy?
-Do l look unhappy?
:44:38
You're always so friendly
and hardworking...
:44:42
and self-possessed.
:44:44
l suddenly had the feeling
that you were terribly unhappy.
:44:49
l'm sorry, Katarina.
l didn't mean to embarrass you.
:44:53
Maybe l want to cry.
-You have to cry if you feel like it.
:44:57
l don't mind at all. On the contrary.
l'd consider it a gesture of trust.
:45:04
Most gay men like women.
:45:07
Not because we're particularly
feminine ourselves. No.
:45:12
But because we're more
in touch with our feelings.
:45:17
l didn't come up with that. Martin
said that. But it could be true.
:45:22
lt's immeasurable grief.
Can you understand that? l've ever...
:45:27
Maybe it isn't grief at all
but some sort of madness.
:45:32
People like me have never given
the soul much thought.
:45:36
Then the soul starts acting up,
and you're helpless. You know?
:45:41
l understand.
:45:44
Perhaps a few tears are shed
at first. A strange kind of crying...
:45:51
which then turns into a terrible
howl of grief and hopelessness.
:45:57
Then it turns into a blind roar.