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I don't know where good babies
come out.
:19:07
And you can't tell the difference.
:19:12
Except bad babies cry a lot.
:19:17
And they make their fathers go away.
:19:20
And their mothers get very ill.
Die sometimes.
:19:27
Mommy wasn't very happy
when she died.
:19:30
I think she went to hell,
because every time I see her...
:19:34
...she looks like she
stepped out of a hot shower.
:19:38
And I'm never sure if it's her...
:19:41
...or the lady who tells me things.
:19:46
They fight over me all the time.
:19:50
The lady...
:19:52
...l saw when I was 1 0.
:19:55
I was lying on the grass,
looking at the sun.
:20:00
The sun became a cloud...
:20:03
...and the cloud became...
:20:05
...the lady.
:20:09
And she told me she would talk to me.
:20:14
Then her feet began to bleed.
:20:17
And I saw there were holes
in her hand and in her side.
:20:21
And I tried to catch the blood
as it fell from the sky...
:20:26
...but I couldn't see
because my eyes hurt...
:20:29
...because there were black spots
in front of them.
:20:35
And she tells me things. Like...
:20:39
...right now she's crying,
"Mariel Mariel"
:20:43
But I don't know what that means.
She uses me to sing.
:20:47
It's as if she's throwing a hook...
:20:49
...and it catches under my ribs
and tries to pull me up.
:20:53
But I can't move.
Mommy's holding my feet.
:20:57
All I can do is sing in her voice