:13:01
No longer:
''Forever'' and ''For eternity''.
:13:03
Sit at the empty place at a card table,
be greeted...
:13:08
even by a nod.
:13:12
Every time we participated,
it was a pretence.
:13:17
Wrestling, allowing a hip to be put out,
in pretence...
:13:21
catching a fish in pretence.
:13:24
ln pretence, sitting at tables
drinking and eating in pretence.
:13:29
Having lambs roasted and wine served
in the tents in the desert...
:13:34
only in pretence.
:13:36
l don't have to beget a child
or plant a tree...
:13:41
but it would be nice,
coming home after a long day...
:13:46
to feed the cat like Philip Marlowe...
:13:50
to have a fever,
blackened fingers from the newspaper.
:13:56
To be excited not only by the mind,
but by a meal.
:14:01
By the line of a neck,
by an ear.
:14:07
To lie.
:14:09
Through one's teeth.
:14:11
As you're walking,
to feel your bones moving along.
:14:15
At last to guess
instead of always knowing.
:14:18
To be able to say:
''Ah'' and ''Oh'' and ''Hey''...
:14:24
instead of: ''Yes and amen.''
-Yes.
:14:27
To be able to enthuse for evil...
:14:31
to draw all the demons
from the passers-by...
:14:34
and to chase them out into the world.
:14:38
To be a savage.
:14:41
Or to feel how it is to take off
your shoes under the table...
:14:46
and to wriggle your toes, barefoot,
like that...
:14:55
Stay alone.
:14:57
Let things happen. Keep serious.