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HI: "My dearest Edwina...
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"tonight as you and Nathan
slumber...
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"my heart is filled
with anguish.
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"I hope that you will both
understand...
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"and forgive me for
what I have decided I must do.
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"By the time you read this,
I will be gone.
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"I will never be the man
that you want me to be...
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"the husband and father
that you and Nathan deserve.
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"Maybe it's my upbringing.
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"Maybe it's just
that my genes got screwed up.
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"I don't know...
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"but the events
of the last day...
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"have showed amply...
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"that I don't have
the strength of character...
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"to raise up a family...
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"in the manner befitting
a responsible adult.
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"I say all this to my shame.
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"I will love you always...
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"truly and deeply...
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"but I fear that if I stay...
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"I would only bring
bad trouble...
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"on the heads of you
and Nathan Junior.
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"I feel the thunder gathering
even now.
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"If I leave...
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"hopefully,
it will leave with me.
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"I cannot tarry.
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"Better I should go...
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"send you money...
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"and let you curse my name.