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I used to sit up in my room at night
and talk to him and he wasn't there.
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So that might have been some kind of
a traumatic experience for me.
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I guess my dad...
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I don't know, maybe he couldn't
get rid of the responsibility...
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or the guilt or something.
I don't know what it was.
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I was there and I guess maybe
I reminded him of that...
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all the time, growing up.
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It was hard for me
to get any acceptance from him.
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When my younger brother was born...
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it was kind of like he was Daddy's
favorite or something, I don't know.
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Everybody's life is going to take
some kind of path...
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regardless of what happens.
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I think maybe that a lot of the things
I did when I was younger...
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was an attempt to get back at him
or something...
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for the way he treated me.
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But I wasn't doing nothing
but hurting myself.