:45:02
She was in the back bedroom
like a dirty secret.
:45:08
My sister died
in the back bedroom,
:45:12
and that's
what she was...
:45:14
a dirty secret.
:45:17
I had to...
:45:18
I had to feed her
sometimes.
:45:20
I hated it,
but I did it.
:45:24
We wanted her to die.
:45:26
We wished...
for her to be dead.
:45:31
It wasn't just so
she wouldn't feel pain.
:45:34
It was so we wouldn't
feel any more pain.
:45:38
She started to look
like this monster.
:45:41
Even now, I wake up
and I think,
:45:44
is Zelda dead yet?
:45:49
Is she?
:45:52
My parents were gone
when she died.
:45:55
Rachel...
:45:57
Ha ha ha.
:46:02
She started to...
:46:05
She started
to convulse...
:46:07
and I thought...
:46:08
I thought...
:46:09
Oh, my God,
she's choking.
:46:11
Zelda's choking.
:46:12
And they'll come home,
:46:14
and they'll say I
murdered her by choking.
:46:17
They'll say,
"You hated her, Rachel,"
:46:20
and that was true.
:46:22
They'll say,
"You wanted her to be dead."
:46:25
That was true, too.
:46:28
And then she died.
:46:31
And I started to scream.
:46:33
I ran from
the house screaming,
:46:36
"Zelda's dead! Zelda's dead!
:46:38
Zelda's dead!"
:46:39
And the neighbors
came out
:46:41
and they--they looked.
:46:44
They thought
I was crying.
:46:47
But you know something?
:46:49
I think maybe...
:46:53
I was laughing.