:44:01
This is great.
He's making it worse.
:44:03
Suicide is wrong, but the
interesting thing about it...
:44:07
is how uncomplicated it seems.
:44:10
You know?
:44:12
There you are,
you got all these problems...
:44:15
swarming around in your brain,
and here is one simple--
:44:20
one incredibly simple solution.
:44:23
I'm just surprised it doesn't
happen every day around here.
:44:25
Now, they're going to say I said
offing yourself was simple...
:44:28
but no, no, no, it's not simple.
:44:31
Like everything else,
you have to read the fine print.
:44:34
For instance, assuming that
there is a Heaven...
:44:38
who would ever want to go there?
:44:40
You know?
I mean, think about it.
:44:42
It's cool. You're sitting there
up on this cloud.
:44:45
It's nice, you know, it's quiet.
:44:46
There's no teachers...
:44:48
there's no parents,
but guess what?
:44:51
There's nothing to do.
:44:53
It's fucking boring.
:44:55
Another thing to remember
about suicide...
:44:57
is that it is not
a pretty picture.
:44:59
First of all,
you shit your shorts.
:45:01
You know?
:45:02
So, there you are, dead.
:45:04
People are weeping
over you, crying.
:45:07
Girls you never spoke to
are saying, "Why? Why? Why?"
:45:11
And you have a load
in your shorts.
:45:13
That's the way I see it.
Sue me.
:45:15
Now, they're saying I shouldn't
think stuff like this.
:45:18
They're saying that something
is wrong with me...
:45:21
that I should be ashamed.
:45:24
Well...
:45:26
I'm sick of being ashamed.
:45:28
I mean, aren't you?
:45:29
Sick to death.
:45:31
I don't mind being
dejected and rejected...
:45:34
but I'm not going
to be ashamed about it.
:45:36
Hallelujah.
:45:37
At least pain is real.
:45:39
You look around,
and you see nothing is real...
:45:41
but at least pain is real.
:45:43
Even this show isn't real.
:45:45
This isn't me.
I'm using a voice disguiser.
:45:47
I'm a phony fuck
just like my dad.
:45:50
Just like anybody.
:45:52
The real me is just as worried
as the rest of you.
:45:56
They say I'm disturbed.
:45:58
Of course I'm disturbed!