:29:00
Wait, I'm not finished yet. I...
:29:06
I guess I'm finished.
:29:22
Would you sit down?
:29:25
Yeah.
:29:31
You can just toss that.
:29:37
Dad. I wish Mom were here.
:29:41
I wish I could call her and talk to her.
:29:44
And yet I know exactly what she'd tell me.
:29:47
And I was going to call you. I was.
:29:50
I wanted to. But I didn't know how.
:29:57
I'm so used to being angry with you
that anything else just doesn't feel right.
:30:02
It felt kind of awkward.
:30:05
I'm sorry I spent my whole life
being angry with you.
:30:09
It's been a constructive anger.
I've gotten a lot done, somehow.
:30:15
You were also my scapegoat.
If anything went wrong, I blamed it on you.
:30:19
Anything. I could fail a test
and somehow it was your fault.
:30:25
Now I look at things as they are
and I realize I need a new approach.
:30:34
I don't have the slightest idea where to begin.
:30:39
I don't know.
:30:42
I get up and pray to God I can get through
the day without somebody catching on.
:30:47
In-between, it's just all smoke and mirrors.
:30:51
I always thought I was doing the right thing
but maybe I was wrong. I don't know.