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- Are you glad to be back? - Yeah, it was incredible.
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I'm real glad to be back though. But at the time I was leaving...
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I really felt the need to get out of this town.
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I'd just ended this two-year relationship with this guy.
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And now that I look back on it, it was really terrible.
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And, like, a boyfriend is the furthest thing from my mind.
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But now that I'm back, things are rolling for me.
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I'm getting a lot of things done.
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I think I can honestly say I'm the happiest I've been in a long time.
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- I just feel great. - That's great, yeah.
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A lot of times I leave a relationship and I feel like a whole person again.
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And I feel really elated.
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It seems then this ebb and flow thing sets in.
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And I start questioning everything, you know.
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And as long as I'm in a relationship, I swear I cannot be objective.
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It seems like after we've decided that we need one another to be happy...
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then I start getting insecure.
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I'm wondering, worrying all the time.
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It seems like rejection looms, ever-present.
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Rejection. That's one thing I'm not scared of anymore.
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I've conquered the fear of rejection.
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I guess I kind of look at it as a trade-off.
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It's like you reject, you're being rejected constantly.
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So how could you let it bother you?
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No. I don't know if I buy that.
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I don't know that anyone can escape the fear of rejection.
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It's a real primal thing, you know. Can it be escap -
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Perhaps human beings weren't made to be happy and free all the time.
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We're always trying to enslave ourselves one way or another.
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If it's not through career, it's through a relationship or it's
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through kids.
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It just doesn't seem to be the natural human state.
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We go through a good phase, then we regress, you know.
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I mean, I'm really glad you're happy.
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Just be prepared. You can always be thrown on the scrap heap.
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- Hey, what's up? How's it going? - Not much. All right.
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- What are you guys up to tonight? - Not much. Just kind of talking.
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Just kind ofhangin'out? You remember...
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I was telling you about my roommate's band earlier?
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Well, he had to borrow my guitar tonight, so...
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I made him put me on the guest list, and I'm on the guest list.