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What?
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Yeah.
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No, no, no, wait a minute. Talking seriously here. I mean, .. I,
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I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of womanhood,
and without making... making it look my...
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my whole life is revolving around some guy.
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But Loving someone, and being loved means so much to me.
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We always make fun of it and stuff.
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But isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?
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Hmmm. Yeah,
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I don't know .
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Sometimes I dream about being a good father and a good husband,
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and sometimes that feels really close.
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But then, other times,
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it seems silly. Like, it would, uh, ruin my whole life.
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And its not just a, uh, a fear of commitment,
or that I'm incapable of caring, or loving, because
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I can. It's just that
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if I'm totally honest with myself,
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I think I'd rather die knowing that I was really good at something,
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that I had excelled in some way,
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y'know, then that I had just been in a nice, caring relationship.
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Yeah
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but I had worked for this older man, and once he told me that he had spent all
of his life thinking about his career and his work, and...
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he was 52 and it suddenly struck him that
he had never really given anything of himself.
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His life was for no one, and nothing.
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He was almost crying saying that.
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Y'know, I believe if there's any kind of God, it wouldn't be in any of us.
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Not you, or me...
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but just this little space in between.