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There are no clear pictures
of the sexual abuse we endured.
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I buried it as deep
as it could possibly go.
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What I remember most clearly
from that chilly October night
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was that it was
my 14th birthday...
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and the end of my childhood.
:41:37
Early in my stay I'd written
and asked my father not to come.
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I couldn't have him see in my
face what had happened to me.
:41:44
Michael did the same
with the members of his family.
:41:47
Tommy's mother couldn't
get it together to visit.
:41:49
John's mother came up
once a month.
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But no-one could stop
Father Bobby from visiting.
:41:58
So listen, let's try to
keep this on a happy note, OK?
:42:02
Nokes warned us not to say
anything to Father Bobby.
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If we did,
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the reprisals would be severe.
:42:22
You lost a few pounds.
:42:24
It's not exactly home cookin'.
:42:27
Sit down.
:42:30
So I get to see
all four of you guys today.
:42:33
I loved Father Bobby,
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but I couldn't stand
to look at him.
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I was afraid he'd
look right through me,
:42:38
past the fear and the shame,
:42:40
right through to the truth.
:42:41
Shakes, is there anything
you want to tell me?
:42:44
Anything at all?
:42:48
You shouldn't come
here any more, Father.
:42:52
I appreciate it and all...
:42:54
I don't think it's
the right thing for you to do.