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A childhood nightmare
returned--
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running home naked
from school in the snow,
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hiding behind bushes,
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trying to avoid being seen,
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to avoid ridicule,
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exposure.
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l pondered
the many options.
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Calling a world conference
for peace.
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l could be
''The Great Peacemaker,''
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voluntarily withdrawing
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to our own borders.
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We would keep only...
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Austria.
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l considered retiring,
:33:44
going back to my painting.
l longed to paint, to create,
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to build.
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l should have been
an architect.
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Has a great ruler ever
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simply disappeared
from the public stage,
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changed his identity?
:34:04
''Let someone else play Hitler,''
l thought,
:34:06
''Give someone else the role!''
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But the stain of defeat
:34:14
would not fade.
:34:19
And then...
:34:22
it came to me.
:34:25
Slowly at first,
like a--
:34:27
a blossom on tree
in spring.
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What l could do next.
:34:33
( nervous breathing )
:34:38
An old image--
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a primal hatred, crystallized.
:34:45
The answer.
:34:48
lt obsessed me
and lifted my spirits.
:34:51
A new plan
for these terrible times.
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lt was the one thought,
the one idea,
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that brought me
peace enough