1:20:02
and I am not making
apologies for them now !
1:20:05
Not to you,
or not to anyone !
1:20:08
And how dare you lay a guilt trip on me
about it, in public, no less ?
1:20:13
Who the fuck do you think
you are, you judgmental prick ?
1:20:17
How the fuck am I supposed
to feel about all this ?
1:20:19
How are you supposed to
feel about it ?
1:20:22
Feel whatever the fuck you want
to about it, all right ?
1:20:25
The only thing that matters
is how you feel about me.
1:20:32
- I don't know how I feel about you now.
- Why ? Why ?
1:20:34
- Because I had some sex ?
- Some sex ?
1:20:37
Yes, Holden.
That's all it was, some sex.
1:20:41
Most of it
stupid high school sex.
1:20:44
Like you never had sex
in high school.
1:20:46
There is a world of fucking difference
between typical high school sex...
1:20:51
and getting fucked by two fucking guys
at the same time !
1:20:55
- They fucking used you.
- No ! I used them !
1:20:59
You don't think I would have let it
happen if I hadn't wanted to, do you ?
1:21:03
I was an experimental girl,
for Christ's sake !
1:21:08
Maybe you knew early on
that your track was from point A to B,
1:21:12
but, unlike you, I was not given
a fucking map at birth.
1:21:16
So I tried it all.
1:21:18
That is until we--
that's you and I-- got together.
1:21:23
And suddenly I was sated.
1:21:26
Can't you take
some fucking comfort in that ?
1:21:30
You turned out to be
all I was looking for,
1:21:34
the missing piece
in the big fucking puzzle.
1:21:43
Look, I'm sorry I let you believe you
were the only guy I'd ever been with.
1:21:48
I should have been
more honest.
1:21:51
But it just didn't-- It seemed
to make you feel special in a way...
1:21:55
that me telling you over and over how
incredible you are wouldn't get across.