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''I've wanted to tell you
for a while now.
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''I wanted to say it as you reached
for a teacup in your kitchen
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''that night after we fought about
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'''why do we always have to
eat Chinese food on your floor,'
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''and then made up.
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''I wanted to say it
as the moonligIht shone in on you
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''as you slept in your bed
the first time we made love there.
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''When I felt your heart racing
against my chest
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''in your suite foyer in Spain
when you first saw your roses.
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''even thougIh I wasn't there.
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''But mostly I wanted to say it
the last nigIht I saw you,
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''as I held you in my arms,
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''looking down
at your precious face
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''knowingly looking up at me,
still inside you --
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''quiet, motionless,
but so inside you.
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''I wanted so badly to tell you that.
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''The words each time
graced my lips like an imposter,
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''only to fall away
like some great blizzard
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''that was taken out to sea to rain
its fury on the dark ocean alone,
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''unbeknownst to any hearing.
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''I pray that you can hear them
for what they are,
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''feel them for what they are,
and not mar them with the knowledge
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''that they stand apart from
your ability to reciprocate them.
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''Please take them in your heart
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''and feel them with your eyes closed
and your soul open