1:55:00
How's your mum?
1:55:03
Well, she's worried, ain't she?
1:55:05
She's worried about Billy.
She's worried about me.
1:55:11
-Coming home?
-We ain't got a home to go back to.
1:55:16
Everything in that place
is fucking smashed.
1:55:20
Jesus, I mean, after all that,
you really must hate me.
1:55:24
-I don't hate you.
-Well, I don't feel loved.
1:55:27
I mean, that ain't love.
1:55:30
Fuck.
1:55:33
Can't you see the mess we're in?
Have you not noticed what we're like?
1:55:40
I mean, we don't talk anymore.
1:55:43
All right, just get in, Mum, will you?
Just get in. I'm dealing with it.
1:55:52
When you go out,
you go with your mates...
1:55:54
...and when you are in, you're pissed
asleep in front of the television.
1:55:59
I'll turn the television off,
go to bed...
1:56:01
...you follow me at 3:00
in the morning stinking of booze.
1:56:04
That's what I get. Either that
or you're knocking me about.
1:56:10
I'm 30 today, you know,
and I feel so fucking old.
1:56:15
You know, I'm so tired.
1:56:18
I wanna be able to look back and say,
"l had a bit of fun."
1:56:22
Instead of saying,
"Everyone fucking felt sorry for me."
1:56:26
I mean, that's the life I've got.
1:56:29
Do you hear what I'm saying?
1:56:38
I just don't want it.
1:56:40
I'll find somebody else.
1:56:43
You know, someone
who can love me. Someone kind.
1:56:55
I'll send Michelle your love.