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Every Friday night-- since I didn't
have to go to school the next day,
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Friday was my big night.
I'd wait till everybody went to sleep,
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about 2:00,
and I'd wake up and I'd start to play.
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Started off simple.
Things like--
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I loved the feeling of being
totally naked all night long,
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waiting for the sun to come up, feeling
the cold air, come in the window.
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I'd lie naked in high school,
on the floor at 2:00 in the morning,
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and pourwhite glue over my body.
Why? I don't know.
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It was a sensation.
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And in the morning,
a lot of the glue dried,
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you had to pick it off your testicles.
That was fun.
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I'd be trussed up by 3:00 in the morning
by these plant hooks.
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I used to get off the chair
for a while and swing.
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The scary thing is I'm sitting
with these ropes in the ceiling
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and I hear my parents wake up,
walk down the hall
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to the kitchen and walk back--
what are you gonna say?
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"A burglar was in here."
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So I ruined almost every door
at my parents' house
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by tying belts to my wrists
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and suspending myself from the door
as I was lifting my feet off.
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So the hinges would just pull--
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nobody could understand
why the doors never closed.
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I used to draw blood.
I used to put pins in a belt,
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and whip myself with the belt.
This is in high school.
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I didn't realize--
I looked back,
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there was blood
all over the bathroom tiles.
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There's a knock on the door--
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"Bob, my cat just got hit by a car."
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Even then, in high school,
I had this Catholic guilt.
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I'm thinking, "See?
You do this and things go wrong.
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You do these things
and something happens.
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Put everything away,
don't ever do this again."
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And it lasted a month.
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To me he was the most normal,
the most--