1:01:00
l always masturbate
with my legs closed,
1:01:03
l rarely part them.
1:01:06
l can offer myself to myself,
rape myself.
1:01:13
lt's mildly satisfying,
a bit nauseating,
1:01:16
but it's proof l don't need a man
if l have to resort to this.
1:01:29
lt was painful for me
to be on his bed.
1:01:33
A pain you could call
feeling like lost luggage.
1:01:39
The more time went by,
the less l could bear it.
1:01:43
l had to cast myself out
like a wreck.
1:01:49
ln the basic meaning of the word,
up for grabs.
1:02:03
The only thing l told myself,
like a two-bit equation,
1:02:08
was that if l'd cheated on him,
and still only loved him,
1:02:13
it didn't much matter
if he'd cheated on me.
1:02:18
But he hadn't. lt was worse,
he was thrilled to be alone.
1:02:34
Love between men and women,
1:02:37
let it be said again,
is a devious conflict.
1:02:41
There...
1:02:44
l win if l'm last to get home.
1:02:48
l know it,
l'll have an edge on him.