1:18:03
-Why was it a mistake?
-What?
1:18:05
You and me. Why was that
a mistake? I'm curious.
1:18:10
We've aIready taIked about it.
You wanna go over it again?
1:18:13
No, you wanna taIk?
Let 's taIk!
1:18:16
Was it a mistake because anything
Iike reaI intimacy freaks you out?
1:18:21
Or just that I'm not
good enough for you?
1:18:25
Ryan, you kissed me,
and I responded...
1:18:31
but I wouIdn't have done it if I thought
it was going to end our friendship.
1:18:34
And neither wouId I.
1:18:37
Ryan, if I couId take
it aII back, I wouId.
1:18:40
Take it. It 's yours. Put it on the sheIf
with aII your other one-night stands.
1:18:51
Why are you doing this?
1:18:54
That night was as much asurprise
to me as it was to you...
1:18:57
but being with you is Iike going
to a pIace I had never been before!
1:19:01
Then, after you feII asIeep,
I just Iaid there, staring up...
1:19:04
at those cheap fIuorescent stars
you have stuck on your ceiIing...
1:19:08
and after awhiIe they just
started forming a pattern...
1:19:13
this weird pattern that Iinked
together our entire reIationship.
1:19:17
And everything seemed cIear to me,
Iike one IogicaI progression.
1:19:22
We're the greatest pIan ever made,
and I had nothing to do with it!
1:19:27
You made me feeI that maybe I didn't
have to keep pIanning anymore...
1:19:31
because it feIt Iike
I was actuaIIy Iiving...
1:19:34
and that for once I wouIdn't have
to work so hard at being happy.
1:19:39
That it couId just happen.
1:19:45
Nothing wiII ever
hurt me as much...
1:19:47
as your reaction
to that same experience.
1:19:52
-Ryan...
-What? What?
1:19:55
You wanna go to the Iibrary and
pretend Iike nothing happened?
1:19:59
I can't do that.