:42:00
are tied in
to my feelings for Jake.
:42:02
That's not the problem,
and you know it.
:42:09
I thought you wanted me.
:42:13
And-- And that affected me.
:42:18
I don't know. I-I-- Maybe that's
not fair, and I'm reading
all kinds of things wrong...
:42:22
but it sure felt that way to me.
:42:33
I don't know what to say.
:42:36
I, um--
:42:40
I've just been having
so much fun, and...
:42:45
I've been feeling
all of these feelings lately...
:42:48
and not just my feelings
for Jake.
:42:51
But this...
:42:55
reconnecting with this part
of myself...
:42:57
that has been shut down
for a long time.
:43:00
And if I indulge those feelings
too much with you...
:43:03
or if I took you for granted,
I am so sorry.
:43:09
I can't bear that I hurt you.
:43:15
Ah, it's not your fault.
:43:18
I totally set myself up for this.
:43:22
I'll tell you something, it's--
I don't know which feels worse.
:43:24
Having my heart broken...
:43:26
or starting to doubt myself
because of what that means for me.
:43:30
Don't you dare doubt yourself.
:43:32
You have a gift,
and you know it...
:43:35
and if you start to doubt that
because of me...
:43:37
Brian, I don't know
what I would do with myself.
:43:40
I don't doubt myself
because of you.
:43:42
I-I feel like the best version
of myself around you...
:43:44
and that makes me doubt
everything else.
:43:50
I don't know what to do, Brian.
Just tell me what to do,
and I will do it.