1:20:02
People say things happen for a reason.
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You must get a lot of that, right?
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l had a miscarriage eight months ago.
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ln Africa.
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lt wasn't anybody's fault.
lt wasn't Peter's fault.
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Not like l didn't try to blame him, or...
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...blame myself like l deserved it,
like there was a reason.
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lf l could just figure it out.
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l thought if l wasn't the one keeping
control, everything would fall apart.
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And l thought that l could just...
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...make it all happen.
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The places we've been, like Thailand...
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...Africa.
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There's so much pain, you know.
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You can't possibly make
any sense out of it.
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You can't push it away, even if you're
paralyzed by it. What good are you? So...
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...you let it go.
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And now that you don't have control?
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lt's like a faith.
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Once you let go...
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...everything becomes clear.
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All the stupid, stupid shit
that l worried about.
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Everything that l put her through.
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lt's like, since the baby, l....
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lt's like everything l learned along the way
somehow didn't apply to me, too.
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You think l would have gotten
the message.
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l gotta get through this.
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l gotta get home.
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Things don't happen for a reason.
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They just...
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...happen.
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My daughter is buried in Africa.