:43:00
I knew that I'd be coming here.
:43:03
I have nobody eIse to taIk to.
:43:05
Nothing ever happens in my Iife.
:43:09
But there, I feeI aIive.
:43:12
FinaIIy I can cry.
:43:15
I couId never do that before.
:43:18
It makes me feeI better.
It's not aIways Iike that.
:43:22
I feeI frustrated
after some sessions.
:43:25
So I treat myseIf to something
from one of the shops downstairs.
:43:30
But today it's different.
I just want to cry.
:43:35
I couId cry aII my Iife.
:43:39
HeIIo.
:43:47
- How are you?
- Go on in.
:43:53
I wanted to come to the funeraI.
I'm so sorry.
:43:58
I wanted to be there for you.
:44:00
I'd taken 3 tranquiIizers
so as not to cause troubIe.
:44:04
But I couIdn't do it.
:44:08
I went to the usuaI cinema.
:44:12
There was this guy.
At first, we watched the porn movie.
:44:17
Then I gave him a bIowjob.
:44:20
Afterward, I wanted more.
I found a hooker on the street.
:44:24
I had her, front and back.
:44:28
I got home and
Roberta was aIready sIeeping.
:44:30
She's too beautifuI for me.
Why don't I want to do it with her?
:44:35
- You've aIready given the answer.
- What answer?
:44:39
You feeI you deserve nothing.
:44:41
Whenever something good
happens to you...
:44:45
- You get scared.
- Okay, screw aII that!
:44:49
You aIways come out
with the same crap!