:14:04
each one of us felt
:14:08
the weight of your empty chair.
:14:25
The day dragged on while
we worked with Father...
:14:31
we thought about
our sisters at home...
:14:35
busy in the kitchen,
or embroidering on the porch...
:14:40
sewing, or cleaning out the pantry.
:14:45
No matter where the girls were...
:14:48
they would never be
the same after that day.
:14:51
They no longer filled
the house with joy.
:14:56
You should have
been there, André.
:15:03
You should have seen Father,
locked up in his silence.
:15:10
Right after dinner he left
the table and went outside.
:15:16
No one saw him withdraw.
:15:21
He stood there...
:15:25
staring blankly
into the dark night.
:15:31
Finally, at bedtime,
when I went to your room...
:15:34
I opened your closet
and pulled the empty drawers...
:15:38
only then I understood...
:15:40
as the eldest brother,
what had really happened:
:15:46
The family's destruction
had begun.
:15:50
It began long before you think.
:15:59
It began at a time when faith grew
malignantly inside of me...