1:31:00
It had happened.
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I had killed my children.
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[Inhales]
1:31:13
I got the rifle.
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I put it to my forehead.
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Then I pulled the trigger.
1:31:29
Nothing.
1:31:38
Then I heard your laughter
in the bedroom.
1:31:43
Ahh.
1:31:46
You were playing
with the pillows...
1:31:47
as if nothing had happened.
1:31:51
And I thought
the Lord in His great mercy...
1:31:58
was giving me another chance...
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telling me, "Don 't give up. "
1:32:11
"Be strong. "
1:32:14
"Be a good mother. "
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"For them. "
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But now...
1:32:28
now...
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what does all this mean ?
1:32:39
where are we ?
1:32:43
MRS MILLS : Young Lydia
said the very same thing...
1:32:45
when she realized
the three of us were dead.
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And that was the last time
she ever spoke.
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But I couldn 't tell you
that before now.