:49:07
I'm in shock.
:49:15
Why?
:49:17
You know why.
:49:21
Bubba sat like that
:49:24
for what seemed like 10 years
before he began to speak.
:49:28
Finally,
when he opened his mouth...
:49:29
he talked a blue streak
:49:31
about the sad ruin
that was his life.
:49:34
He talked about
how he loved Phil...
:49:36
and how he loved me...
:49:37
and how he always wanted
a girlfriend just like me
:49:40
and to be a guy like Phil
:49:41
and to be a guy like Phil
:49:42
to this imaginary girl
like me who he never found.
:49:46
Then he started on about
giving up your dreams
:49:49
and how it's all a part
of getting older.
:49:51
Bubba had given up
his dream of being Phil.
:49:55
He had accepted his fate
of being Bubba...
:49:58
always and forever.
:50:01
Then last week...
:50:02
a door that had
always been shut
:50:04
swung wide open.
:50:15
Bubba felt that this
was no chance coincidence.
:50:19
A cosmic force was at work.
:50:22
The sounds of me making love
to a man who wasn't Phil
:50:25
was like
a shout in Bubba's ear
:50:27
from the Creator himself.
:50:36
What it meant,
or what to do or why...
:50:39
Bubba didn't know.
:50:41
All he knew
was that he hated me
:50:42
for poisoning
the well of idealism
:50:44
from which he had drunk
for so long.
:50:47
I was no longer Bubba's image
of perfection.
:50:51
I was just
a liar and a whore...
:50:53
and that sickened him.
:50:57
But on the other hand...
:50:58
he loved me
for opening his eyes