:59:00
but it makes no sense
if my father pleads guilty
:59:03
and then I go to trial and say,
"I didn't do it"
:59:05
when all the jurors have already
read in the newspaper
:59:08
that my father plead guilty.
:59:10
And I did not want my father
to plead guilty.
:59:15
I arranged for Mr. Friedman
and his family
:59:17
to get a jury room
where they could sit
:59:20
and they could discuss
these plea options.
:59:24
And while I didn't go
inside the room
:59:27
except to knock on the door
and say where we're at
:59:30
in terms of what Mr. Friedman
wanted to do
:59:32
there was a lot
of yelling and crying
:59:37
and screaming going on,
coming out of that room.
:59:40
God damn it!
:59:41
When I screamed at Arnold,
I screamed
:59:44
"You must do it
because it'll help Jesse.
:59:47
Do it for Jesse. "
:59:48
And my brothers were
just furious at this notion
:59:53
that my father would go to court
and plead guilty.
:59:55
And at one point
in all of the chaos
:59:57
my father
just started screaming.
1:00:00
And there's
uncontrollable tears
1:00:02
and he picked up a chair.
1:00:03
I remember he threw a chair.
1:00:05
He was just screaming about how
he wasn't gonna plead guilty.
1:00:07
He didn't do anything,
he's not gonna plead guilty.
1:00:09
And he was furious
at my mother
1:00:11
and he was
just freaking out.
1:00:16
And I remember very clearly
1:00:19
sitting down with my father
in the corner.
1:00:22
My mother's over there,
brothers are over here.
1:00:24
I'm talking to
my father privately
1:00:26
and he asked me
what he should do.
1:00:31
And I could have said
to my father
1:00:35
"I want you just
to walk out of here
1:00:36
and go to trial
and not plead guilty. "
1:00:40
Instead, I remember
very clearly saying to him
1:00:45
I wanted him
to make the decision.
1:00:50
And I remember feeling like
a really young kid.
1:00:53
Kind of looking up
to my Dad and saying
1:00:55
"Dad, I," you know
"I want you to be my Daddy. "