1:20:00
As if b y doing some number
of good things now...
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... it could make up
for one very bad thing then.
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But I think that b y telling you
who I am...
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... I would only be helping myself.
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But I'm too weak to carry this weight.
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And I need you to know
how sorry I am.
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I'm a murderer and a coward.
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And I will always remain
these things.
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I read a book once on redemption.
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A man said there were five steps
toward making amends.
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The first involved
acknowledging what you did.
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The second involved remorse.
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The third involved making right
with your neighbor.
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Only then were you able
to go to step four...
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... which was making it right with God.
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Only I can't bring Abner Easely back
like he's some stolen chicken.
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Certainly made sure
of that 23 years ago.
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And I don't believe in some God...
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... that's gonna open his arms to me
even if I did.
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So there go steps three and four.
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And as for step five...
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... time makes sure we're never
in the same place twice...
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... no matter how much we wish it.
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Which is why, for me,
I know I'll never be redeemed.