:36:03
One can't be above things
and want to transform them.
:36:07
Let things be as written.
:36:09
I was transformed. I didn't choose.
:36:12
That's different.
:36:16
But you still made a choice.
:36:18
I'm not sure.
:36:23
Do you suffer because of
your physique?
:36:27
That's unimportant.
:36:28
Not true. That can't be said.
:36:31
I'm talking about me.
:36:33
I was from the favela slums.
:36:35
I always knew my life
would be different from other boys.
:36:39
But I didn't choose, not even that.
:36:43
It was there.
:36:46
It took a lot of work.
:36:48
It was my own war.
:36:51
I became a woman, then a whore.
:36:56
Little boys who become women...
:36:59
they become whores.
:37:02
Then a man tore out my eyes.
:37:06
Now I have a gift.
:37:09
So I give.
:37:11
I don't see the wrong in that.
:37:14
All of you look at me, thinking
it's more, it's a great joy.
:37:19
But it's a celebration in despair.
No one sees that.
:37:24
I can't decide.
:37:26
That's how it is. I decide nothing.
:37:30
I told you, I decide nothing.
:37:34
I'm just like that.
:37:36
Nothing I can do about it.
:37:40
I live with that. I accept it.
:37:42
I feel I speak the truth.
:37:45
The truth is a force.
:37:50
I told you,
my life changed violently.
:37:54
Sometimes I feel happy.