:35:01
she would always warn me
about dirty old men,
:35:03
giving me candy,
:35:04
and then showing me their penis...
:35:06
She was so obsessed with it, that...
:35:08
later in life, you know,
I had...
:35:10
I had this image in my head
that that's really happened!
:35:13
To the point that I even associated
sex with that walk home.
:35:17
I mean, sometimes, even now,
:35:19
when I'm...
:35:22
when I'm having sex, I see
myself walking down that street.
:35:25
I swear!
:35:26
It's so weird, right?
:35:28
Well, is that street near by?
:35:29
I mean, could...
:35:30
No...
:35:32
Very far.
:35:35
Did you ever keep a journal
when you were a kid?
:35:37
Uhm, yeah...
:35:39
On and off,
I guess.
:35:42
It's funny, I read a...
:35:43
one of mine from '83,
the other day.
:35:45
Yeah
:35:46
And, what really
surprised me, was that
:35:48
I was feeling with life,
the same way am now.
:35:51
I was much hopeful and naive,
:35:53
but the core,
:35:54
and the way I was feeling things,
:35:56
is exactly the same!
:35:57
It made me realize I haven't
changed much at all.
:36:00
Yeah, I don't think anybody does,
:36:01
and people don't want
to admit it, but it's like we just...
:36:03
we have this innate set points.
:36:05
- Aha.
- You know, it's like...
:36:06
nothing much that happens to us
changes our disposition.
:36:10
Really, you believe that?
:36:10
I think so. I read this study
where they followed people
:36:13
who won the lottery, and people
who had become paraplegic, right.
:36:16
You'd think that...
:36:17
you know, one extreme
is gonna make you...
:36:20
euphoric, and the other suicidal.
:36:21
But the study shows that
after about 6 months,
:36:24
- Uhum
- Right...
:36:25
As soon as people got used to
their new situation,
:36:27
they were more or less the same.
:36:29
- The same?
- Well, yeah...
:36:31
Like if they were basically
an optimistic, jovial person,
:36:34
they're now an optimistic,
jovial person, in a wheel chair.
:36:36
If they're a petty miserable asshole,
:36:38
ok, they're a petty miserable asshole
with a new Cadillac, a house and a boat.
:36:42
So, you now be forever depressed,
:36:44
no matter what great
things happen in my life?
:36:46
Definitely!
:36:47
- Great!
- No, come on...
:36:48
Are you depressed now?
:36:50
No, no, I'm not depressed.
:36:52
But, sometimes I worry that
:36:53
I'll get to the end of my life feeling
I haven't done all I've all I wanted to do.
:36:57
Oh, what do you wanna do?
:36:58
Oh, I want to paint more,
I wanna...