:51:01
and a buddy of mine
is driving me downtown,
:51:03
and I'm staring at the window...
:51:04
and I think I see you.
:51:06
Not far from the church, right.
:51:08
Folding up an umbrella, and walking
into a deli, on the corner of...
:51:12
13th and Broadway.
:51:15
And I thought I was going
crazy, you know?
:51:16
But now I think it probably was you...
:51:19
I lived on 11th and Broadway.
:51:22
You see.
:51:26
So, what is it like to be married.
You haven't talked much about that.
:51:30
I haven't?
:51:32
How weird?!
:51:34
I don't know, me met...
:51:36
you know, when I was in college...
:51:39
And...
:51:39
we broke up and got back together,
for a period of years,
:51:43
and then...
:51:45
What?...
:51:46
We were sort of back together, and...
:51:48
she was pregnant...
:51:51
So, marriage.
:51:52
Maybe she lied.
:51:54
She's a great teacher,
a good mom...
:51:57
Uhm, she's smart...
:51:59
pretty...
:52:01
I remember thinking at the time, that...
:52:03
so many of the men that
I admire most, you know,
:52:06
that their lives were...
:52:08
were dedicated to something
greater than themselves...
:52:11
So, you got married because men
you admire were married?
:52:14
No, no, no, it...
:52:16
It's more like I have this...
:52:17
this idea of my best self!
:52:20
You know?
:52:20
And I wanted to pursue that...
:52:22
even if might have been overwriting
my honor other self!
:52:25
You know what I'm saying?
:52:27
I mean, it's funny like...
:52:28
in the moment, I remember thinking
that it didn't much matter
:52:30
the "Who?" of it all...
:52:32
I mean, that nobody is
gonna be everything to...
:52:34
And that ultimately, it's just a simple
action of committing yourself,
:52:37
you know, meeting your
responsibilities that...
:52:39
that matters.
:52:41
I mean, what is love?
:52:42
Right, if it's not respect,
trust, admiration? And I...
:52:45
I felt all those things!
:52:48
So, cut to the present tense,
I feel like I'm running a small nursery
:52:51
with somebody I...
:52:52
used to date.
:52:54
I mean,
:52:55
I'm like a monk, you know.
:52:56
I mean, I've had sex less than...
:52:57
... 10 times in the last 4 years.