:42:01
I went to sammy because I saw
the way he handled his addiction...
:42:04
one day at a time.
:42:05
I asked him if he could help me
to get into a program.
:42:09
He did, and that's
where I met farrah.
:42:15
Farrah.
:42:19
What's her addiction?
Is she a sex addict too?
:42:22
Do the two of you just get together...
you just fuck all the time?
:42:24
It doesn't matter.
:42:28
- It's cocaine, actually.
- Oh. Good.
:42:32
Good... expensive.
:42:34
The worst thing of all, lou...
:42:36
was that throughout
our marriage...
:42:38
I blamed you
for what was happening.
:42:42
Sure. Why not?
:42:43
The more I acted out,
the less you seemed to notice.
:42:45
You had this image of me that I was
like some knight in shining armor.
:42:50
You wouldn't let go of it.
You clung to it.
:42:53
I was desperate
for you to catch me.
:42:57
You have no idea what it's like
to live with an addiction...
:42:59
day in, day out, lou...
to live this secret life.
:43:03
But I can tell you right now...
:43:06
I have finished with hiding.
:43:08
And if you'll let me, l...
:43:11
I want to repair
the damage that i've done.
:43:19
You're on step nine, aren't you?
:43:25
You're making amends?
:43:29
I fucking hate step nine
with a passion!
:43:32
I am trying...
:43:34
to repair
the most important relationship...
:43:37
of my life.
:43:38
After all these years,
I am offering myself to you.
:43:43
The real me.
:43:47
- My real self.
- Get out, peter.