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I had long since
stopped believing in God.
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I always wondered, if things really hit
the fan, whether I would, under pressure,
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turn around and say a few Hail
Mary's, and say "get me out of here".
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It never once occurred to me.
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It meant that I really don't believe.
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And I really do think that when you die,
you die. That's it, there's no afterlife.
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There's nothing.
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And I was thinking, "Could
I climb out of here?"
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25 meter of overhanging ice. No way,
I couldn't do it with a good leg.
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I knew that they were both dead. But I
couldn't just clear off and leave the camp.
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For one thing, I didn't
know anything about them,
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except for their first
names, Joe and Simon.
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I didn't know their family names,
I really knew nothing about them.
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And I had this bizarre idea, that
if they'd fallen off the mountain,
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they would have just
landed at the bottom of it.
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And I thought, perhaps from the bottom
of the glacier, I'd be able to see them.
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And set off with the aim
of going as far as I could.